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2004
Be Patriotic – Support Democracy – Go Shopping, Big Business is Watching You!
By Lolly DePaulo





Two Thousand and Four

Be Patriotic – Support Democracy – Go Shopping

Big Business is Watching You!

By Lolly DePaulo



Forward: Most of us have read George Orwell’s paradigm busting novel, 1984. What we may not have considered during high school or college English class, is that Orwell’s nightmarish dystopia describes a world with innumerable parallels to an actual future, namely, the United States of today.

October 15, 2004

Why am I writing this? Truthfully I can’t explain it even to myself. I guess to have a record, to remember – it just seems like things are falling apart. I blame those damn terrorists who tried to detonate a dirty bomb outside of LAX –they blew themselves up in the process. Nothing was found but a letter detailing the extent and scope of the “Plot against Freedom,” as channel 5 calls it. I am really scared. Who would have thought that Al Qaeda was conspiring with Fidel Castro? President Bush really had no choice but to declare Martial Law. That was only fourteen days ago but Congress has already reinstated the draft. A lot of my seniors are being called up. Sad. But I am glad Elections have been canceled. Who could think about voting at a time like this?

October 18, 2004

It is such a beautiful morning; the sun is shimmering off of our apartment pool. It makes me want to jump in and splash around, not worrying about messing up my hair or drying out my skin. Oh well, I’ll take a steam bath later, after my workout. I hope Dan is at the gym today. I wonder if he’ll be drafted. Hopefully he can get out of it; he has been giving me some serious “love” lately, even asked me to go sit in on one of his music sessions. Damn, I wish I didn’t have to teach today, it would be so great staying home and working on my tan. Besides, I am sick and tired of listening to everyone at school whine about the invasion of Cuba. The Cubans are terrorists aren’t they? So who cares!

PS Dan wasn’t at the gym today.

October 19, 2004

It seems like there are more and more cameras everywhere I go. Telephoto Lens follow my movements from the patio of my apartment complex to the driveway and for most of the 12-miles to the campus. I realize this is all for our safety – better be safe than sorry, still, sometimes it seems a bit oppressive….Is it my imagination or has traffic gotten worse since they changed the name of the 405 to PepsiCo Expressway. Corporations are buying up all of the freeway names, the 101 is now Halliburton Highway. It is annoying, couldn’t California have come up with the money for schools any other way? Not that it has helped much. I now have over 300 students in my five English classes. Thank God Walton Charter High School had the foresight to introduce TV instruction. It has made things so much easier, I don’t have to do anything but grade tests (and most of them on are scantrons) and keep the kids quiet. Of course, it is kind of boring.

October 23, 2004

Oh Happy Day! Running into Dan at Starbucks was excellent -- he bought me a Frapuccino. Too bad I had to toss most of it as Kelly’s 30th bash last night was a bit too much fun – there was some definite thigh puckering visible this morning. Not Good! The boobs, however, are fabulous. It is so great that the people who took over our health insurance coverage give us special discounts on silicon enhancement procedures. Yes, the boobs look quite perky in my new electric yellow bikini. The hot weather has held up all week and today is Relax in the Sun and Make Myself a Golden Shade of Brown Day. Life is fine despite some really negative colleagues of mine who have been moaning about global warming. Why do some people have to constantly look at the dark side of things? I told them, “My glass is always half full, so you can take your doom and gloom and peddle it elsewhere.”

October 29, 2004

The teachers unions have been outlawed. The Secretary of Education, Rod Paige, said they were terrorist organizations. I never noticed that, but then I seldom had time to attend meetings. Besides, I don’t really see why we need a union. There are a lot better things I could do with my monthly $50 dues– like buying some gas for my SUV. Speaking of which, Jen had to sell hers at a huge loss. She couldn’t afford the gas anymore. Now I am going to have to drive her down to Ensenada for an abortion. Why has it been banned? What the hell does abortion have to do with terrorists? This is really disturbing; my entire weekend is going to be messed up. Jen will not be in the mood to party afterwards so we’ll just have to sit on our motel balcony and watch the surf. Oh well. She is my best friend, we’ve known each other since 8th grade and we always said we would be there for each other.

October 31, 2004

Ensenada was actually kind of fun, despite missing some great Halloween parties. The drive along the coast was beautiful and our hotel was old and funky with fireplaces in each room. The food was terrific and we didn’t worry about a thing, no thoughts of diets and cellulite and boring work. It was like being back in college –gossiping, acting silly and fantasizing about George Clooney. Jen and I got drunk on margaritas and we danced like crazy to the salsa music. Some really old guys, in their late forties, tried to pick us up. As IF!! Why do flabby out-of-shape men think hot young women would want them? One word –DELUSIONAL! It was so great being away and the abortion was a snap. It only took 30 minutes. Jen refused anesthesia so she was feeling normal almost immediately. Of course, she was a bit sad, but that is to be expected. God I am sick of teaching. I dread going back to work tomorrow.

November 1, 2004

What a crappy day! As usual, work sucked. The board has voted to take away our conference periods. Great! Now we’ll have even more students. It is getting ridiculous. Maybe going charter wasn’t such a good idea afterall. More and more teachers are quitting. Then after school I ran into Dan and Christina being all kissy-face outside the gym. He had lied about them being broken up. What an ass! If that wasn’t bad enough, I got home and discovered my account at B of A was overdrawn and the damn bank charged me $50 a check in “service fees.” What the hell has happened to regulations? Isn’t there a law against that or something? But, even more appalling, I got a phone call from my mom; she’s been fired. Why does she always have to complain about Bush? I knew it was going to get her in trouble. What is she going to do? It is too depressing; I need to concentrate on something fun, like getting a date with Clooney. I wonder if he likes fake but utterly spectacular boobs.

November 2, 2004

Jen and I were hanging out at Nicks tonight (1/2 off drinks in honor of the canceled elections) and saw it all over TV -- Iran has sold North Korea nuclear weapons and Ron Lay, The Secretary of Defense, is saying the free world is in imminent danger and that Iran and North Korea better disarm because Korea could launch a nuclear attack against California in just 45 minutes. This is kind of confusing. Isn’t that what they said about Iraq? – I am beginning to wonder if you can believe everything you see on the news shows. On the bright side, I did meet a cute guy – Phil, he is also a teacher, not like me, but a fitness instructor. We have a date tomorrow night.

November 11, 2004

I haven’t had much chance to write in my journal; Phil and I have been out almost every night. It is beginning to get serious; we’re talking about being exclusive. I am worried and excited and hopeful all at the same time; the old biological clock is beginning to tick and I just realized 27 is only three years away from 30! Bummer, I just heard it on the news! Clooney has been arrested along with Tim Robbins, Sean Penn and a lot of other big Hollywood stars. Who would have thought that such rich, famous and talented people would throw it all away to conspire against our country. I am really, really scared. Who can we trust anymore? Thank God I met Phil.

November 13, 2004

OH my God!! I can’t believe it! Both Jen and I have been chosen as contestants on that new show, Bend Over and Kiss Your Ass Goodbye! I am soooo excited!! Thank God I let her talk me into sending my resume and head shot. It seemed so stupid at the time, but I am going to win, I am going to win the Double Whammy, I can feel it in my bones!! Jen is the best.

November 17, 2004

I have been suspended without pay for three days. Ian Cower, the CEO of Walton Charter Schools, said parents were complaining about me because I had told the students that the biblical story of creation was metaphorical. This is some real bullshit. How was I supposed to know we weren’t allowed to say that? Why is everything in my life so messed up lately? I am a nice person, a good and loyal friend, a dutiful daughter, and I have a sunny, optimistic personality. But everything is going wrong. And not just for me. The Hollywood Hate Mongers, as all of the papers and television networks call them, have been convicted of treason. They got sentenced to life at the new GE Forever Restricted Educational Evaluation Center (FREE), which has been built in the Sierras. How creepy! I don’t think they deserved such long sentences. But I can’t dwell on negativity, right now I need to find a way to score a Double Whammy on Bend Over and Kiss Your Ass Goodbye!

November 23

The Supreme Court just granted Bush the title of President for Life. One of the government teachers claims Justice Rehnquist cited the same “Pontius Pilate” principle he used in the 2000 election. It said, “The individual citizen has no federal constitutional right to vote for electors for the president of the United States.” Wow, this has really come as a surprise to me. I thought we could vote for the president, not that I voted a lot anyway, but it would be nice to think I could, if I wanted to. In fact, when elections are called again, if they ever are, I am definitely going to vote. Odd, now that I can’t, I really, really want to.

November 24, 2004

No school, no school, no school for four days! Thank you Thanksgiving. So, this morning I went to the bank and did it! I got sick and tired of paying huge fees for overdrafts. So Citicorp had this great offer, we could get Lifetime Overdraft Protection for Free if we switched to sub-dermal credit cards. They’re calling it getting “chipped.” It didn’t even hurt, felt kind of like an injection. But, the convenience – No forgotten cards! No stolen cards! Most stores and restaurants have already installed scanners that pick up your number as you enter their business. Afterwards, you just sign a screen with a thumbprint. Soooo convenient! My mom says I’ll be sorry. Why? Why is she being so negative?

November 26, 2004

Phil got a nasty holiday surprise; he has been drafted and is being shipped to Iran. I guess the Ayatollahs won’t disarm. Those bastards! How can they do this to us? What have we ever done to them? It is because of our freedoms, they hate our wonderful lives; they want to live in darkness and fear and worship some crazy priests in black hoods who have thick, ugly beards. Islam is such a sick religion. Phil and I were having a great time. Now we won’t be together for months, maybe years. He’s asked me to stay faithful. I lied and said I would. But, really, long distance relationships just don’t last; he should know that. Besides, he lied to me, he’d said he was 26, but now I learn he’s 24. This is so sad. Thank God Korea surrendered without a fight.

December 8, 2004

Bad, bad news. My half-sister, Annie, my biological father’s daughter from his first wife, just got diagnosed with breast cancer. How could that be, she is only 36! We’re all in a state of shock. Of course we told her she can beat this, she is a fighter and an optimist and she can beat it. So, she loses a boob, big deal, fake ones are just as good, even better. My mom is furious, she blames the corporations. But then mom blames everything on them. She thinks it is pollution and contamination of our food supply that is causing an “epidemic” of cancer. I’m not sure; that sounds a little nutty to me. Shit happens, everyone knows that.

December 13, 2004

I called in sick today. Jen and I are going to Burbank Studios to be contestants on Bend Over and Kiss Your Ass Goodbye….I’ve been practicing for weeks! This is so thrilling, so amazing and wonderful and terrific and, and, and…words fail me. The show is kind of crazy, I mean they set you up to do some scary, scary shit. But, I’ve been practicing, watching all of the old tapes and there isn’t a thing they could throw at me that would cause a moment of panic….I say, Bring It On!

December 14, 2004

I got back to school and learned that two of the teachers have been arrested. I don’t understand why, when did it become illegal to write letters to the editor criticizing the Bush Administration? I heard they are going to be prosecuted for “domestic terrorism.” Bullshit, they’re about as dangerous as I am. Of course everyone is really fed-up with the constant threats from France and Germany and perhaps the government is overreacting a wee bit. God, why don’t people just mind their own business and not become agitators, it makes it so much harder for those of us just trying to do our jobs and live our lives in peace.

December 17, 2004

My mom has lost her house so she’s moved in with Annie – Annie’s husband can’t take care of the kids alone now that the cancer has spread. It’s a vicious kind, really aggressive. Annie is trying another round of chemo. She looks awful. We are all praying for her and the little ones. They are so cute. It’s too bad my half-sister and I have never been close, but having different mothers, it didn’t work out that way, and there were many years my mom and her mom didn’t speak. But now all is forgiven and both moms are helping with the chores. It seems like a lot of good is coming out of this cancer….. Some more bad news – I didn’t make it to the second round of Bend Over and Kiss Your Ass Goodbye…bummer! But, I did take home $700 for the one day “trial by fire.” (It was much worse than I had imagined, the burns still hurt.)

December 22, 2004

Christmas Vacation, one whole week of FREEDOM!! Winning that $700 has saved my butt….I didn’t know how I was going to buy everyone presents, especially Annie’s kids. And with the constant reminders to “Be Patriotic –Support Democracy – Go Shopping” the pressure is on. But honestly, I am getting pretty sick of all of this. I overheard some bits of Rush Limbaugh today, he was screaming about traitors – people who won’t go out and run up their credit cards. That man is a creep, but I can’t tell anyone what I think because Patriot Act III has just been passed and I could get arrested. I’ve always believed we had to trust our government but lately I am beginning to lose my faith.

December 25, 2004

Christmas was kind of sad. Mom had me over for a big dinner and the kids were thrilled by all the gifts, but Annie is weak and her husband Don is frantic. It is breaking my heart. I also noticed something weird buried on the back pages of today’s papers. The government has set up internment camps for traitors and terrorists. Internment camps? It didn’t work with the Japanese, why would it work with the Arabs and the Sikhs. The whole thing is getting damn depressing and to make things worse, yesterday it was announced that Tony Blair has been an Irani agent all along. Bush and Cheney and the Secretary of Defense, Ron Lay, are talking about invading Britain to capture the illusive “evildoer” Blair. Doesn’t anyone remember that only a year ago he was our ally? Americans are such sheep.

January 9, 2005

I haven’t heard from Phil in a couple of weeks. There has been a lot of trouble in Iran, a lot of resistance. What is wrong with those people? They have just been brainwashed by Muslim extremists. Of course, Phil’s last phone call was kind of depressing. He hates it there. He says the whole thing stinks. I really, really, miss him, it isn’t just BS. I meant it when I told him I was being faithful. I haven’t really seen anyone else I’d care to date. Ian, the CEO of Walton Charter Schools, asked me out, but he is kind of gay and besides, I am still mad about being suspended, so I told him I was engaged.

January 15, 2005

Jen, Kelly, Sara and Donna came over yesterday. I couldn’t “do” New Year’s Eve, as I had to baby-sit while Annie was in the hospital. So, we had a good old fashioned “girls night out.” I think we all needed it since the devaluation of the dollar has been hard on our budgets. Besides, teachers have all had to take salary cuts–only Jen, who just got a fat job as a stock analyst, could pay -- she treated us -- we just couldn’t chip in – although I am “chipped” ha, ha, ha…. I think I might be turning into an L-word (you know, liberal), I actually bought an underground newspaper yesterday – yeah I was afraid I’d get caught, but now that the Internet has been taken over by Disney how can I find out if Blair really is an Irani agent. It sounds very fishy to me and I am beginning to think they’re using all of this “evildoer stuff” as a pretext for invading other countries. Of course when I brought that up last night I was accused of being a “conspiracy theory nut.”

February 22, 2005

Sorry I haven’t made any entries in so long. Things around here are going from bad to worse. Annie died. We have been devastated, especially her poor husband, who can’t properly grieve since unions have been outlawed, eliminating personal leave and most other paid holidays. My heart is breaking for Don and the kids, but Annie’s death is not in vain, it has made me see how short and precious life is and how easy it is to lose sight of what is important. I’ve decided to stop focusing on the bad and to look at what is good, so that I don’t get sucked into mom’s anger. Since clean air and clean water standards have been “adjusted,” she says cancer rates will triple again. Who can say, but I just can’t dwell on it….speaking of lousy news, Phil isn’t coming home this summer. All tours of duty have been extended another six months. Yes, I know we had kind of broken up anyway since he had stopped writing, but I was hoping things would change once he got home. Now he isn’t coming back, at least for awhile and there is no hope for us. That is sad but it does make me feel less guilty about seeing Carlos. I met him at school; he was one among many subs now taking over the classes of fired teachers. Total School Services, TSS, contracts with Walton Charter School to supply them. Carlos hates the place; he only gets paid $9.75 an hour while TSS gets $36.00 an hour for their work. (I discovered that when I went out with Ian Cower, the CEO of Walton Charter School. He got stoned on our one pathetic date and bragged all night about his stock in TSS and how much money he makes, as if that would make me put out, the jerk!) Although I have to admit, sometimes I wish I didn’t have so much integrity, it would be great to date a rich guy (like Jen is doing) and not have to worry all of the time about money.

March 1, 2005

My birthday, my birthday, I am now 28!! How scary!! But, the good news is Carlos and I are still dating! This is a surprise, he used to be so negative all of the time, I just didn’t think we would last. But then I have been helping him improve his outlook on life and he has been helping me become a bit more realistic. Besides, I just found out something that boggled my mind. Carlos used to be a doctor, a medical doctor! But since so many hospitals and clinics have been forced to close because of budget cuts he hasn’t been able to get a job and he refuses to work for Tenet, Inc. which now owns almost all of the HMO’s. I guess he has a good reason to be negative, his student loan payments are outrageous!

March 5, 2004

Things are finally beginning to look up. Mom found another job and has decided to move out of Annie’s husband’s house. The situation there had gone bad; he was drinking again and the family was in chaos. So the kids are being farmed out to relatives until Don can get back on his feet. Mom took a job as a nanny for some rich guy who runs a security company. They gave her a cute little cottage on the grounds of their estate. It isn’t a bad set up at all. I just worry about my half nieces and nephew, I am going to start taking them out on Saturdays. Of course, since most of the parks have been closed down because of the wars, it is hard to find places to take them. Thankfully the beaches are still open, albeit dirty as hell with all of the homeless people who use the sand as a toilet. Reminds me of pictures I’ve seen of India…some other good news is that Phil has come back for a few weeks leave (he faked going starkers) and we’ve decided to just be friends – this has given us closure. Which is important.

PS I am beginning to fall for Carlos.

March 22, 2005

Jen got married today in a lovely spring wedding. What a bash! She ended up marrying one of the partners at her firm. Yeah, I know, we said we would never date old guys…but hey, what are we supposed to do? Good jobs for women aren’t that plentiful anymore. Todd isn’t so bad; at least he’s not flabby. You should see their house, not house, mansion! And the wedding, it was unbelievable. I was the maid of honor. Jen had to buy our dresses; we couldn’t afford the designer gowns she’d chosen. But they were beautiful, peach silk organza. It was a fairy tale night. Todd rented out the Four Seasons– the entire hotel. The ceremony was by the pool, which had been decorated to represent Venezia. And the reception took place in various banquet halls, all of which had been elaborately decorated with their theme of the Italian Renaissance with champagne flowing from various ice sculptures. It was amazing, lavish, insane and must have cost millions. What a wonderful, magical night! Tomorrow is school…I can’t stand to even think about it.

May 5, 2005

I can’t believe it; Carlos and I have been dating three months now. It is so amazing. He is fun and funny and serious and silly. He’s taught me so much. At first I was afraid, I guess that is natural, but now everything is easy. I was sitting on the shore watching him body surf the other day and it hit me, this is it, this is what life is all about – loving someone you admire, someone you can trust. I don’t think I ever understood what trust was before – never having been close to my father. Carlos is like a dad and a best friend and a lover rolled into one. Mom adores him (she usually thinks my guys are mimbos, you know, male bimbos). Most important of all, he’s taught me to ask questions and to ignore all of the BS coming out of the news shows and in the newspapers. And, I got rid of that damn chip in my arm. Was I nuts or what?

May 9, 2005

Carlos and I have been talking about making a long-term commitment. I am happy, in fact happier than I’ve ever been, but I am also scared. I wouldn’t admit this to anyone, but the truth is, I can’t see why Carlos wants me. He could do better, he really could. He has it all –brilliant, kind, hardworking and beautiful. As for me, I don’t even think the fake boobs are all the fabulous anymore. I guess my true fear is that he’ll find out the truth, that I am really nothing but a dumb piece of eye candy. Low self-esteem, yes, I need to work on that – I’ve been trying. I have a list of books I am plowing my way through and I devour the underground papers. Slowly my brain seems to be improving. I’ve even started throwing out those stupid scantrons and giving my students real writing assignments with real tests! The bonus is teaching has gotten a lot more interesting. But, ignorance is bliss and I find my growing awareness can often be difficult to process. My girlfriends don’t seem to want to spend that much time with me anymore. They say I’ve become too political and that I am a “downer.” I miss my friends. Carlos says I’ll make new ones…I hope so.

May 11, 2005

OH God, the shit has hit the fan. Carlos has disappeared. He didn’t show up at school on Monday. They were furious and threatened to fire him. I left early, around 4, and drove over to find his house trashed, his clothes, his books, even his wallet were left behind. I’ve been hysterical since then. But the police won’t do a damn thing….nor will anyone else. Carlos’ family is frantic. Oh please god, protect him. Don’t let “them” hurt him.

May 12, 2005

I have been too distraught to go to work. Hector, Carlos’ brother met me behind the dumpsters at the mall. I know I am being followed and losing “them” took some work. But, I don’t think we were seen. Hector told me to stay away from the family – not to call or write or anything - but be ready to leave at a moment’s notice. He thinks Carlos is still alive but that I might be taken into custody.

August 17, 2005

Today was the first day of the new term. It was tough going back. These have been the worst months of my life. As expected, I was arrested, but soon released. I think I convinced them that I was an unwitting stooge, taken in by Carlos’ “nefarious plans.” I believe they liked the part about “nefarious plans.” Those guys are kind of naïve aren’t they?

August 22, 2005

Amazing, wonderful news! Carlos has escaped!! Hector got news to me from his Network – I can’t say more about that. They told me that in the chaos following Sean Penn’s execution, Carlos escaped from FREE and got over the border. Oh happy days!! September 6, 2004 (This is it, my last entry, good-bye journal)

Labor Day weekend and my last day in the U.S. I guess I was the naïve one. “They” had an alternative motive for releasing me. The Network claims Homeland Alert plans to use me as bait, to lure Carlos out of hiding (I was reminded of what they did to the women of Abu Ghraib prison who were being used as bait in Iraq - shudder). Which is why I have only an hour to pack and get out. Hector is taking me to Carlos, but he won’t tell me where he is or how we’re going to find him. All I know it that it has something to do with boats…...



Mom, Hector has promised to get a copy of this journal to you. I am scared, really more frightened than I’ve ever been in my life. How did this happen? One moment I was a happy, carefree teacher and the next I am a fugitive from “justice.” But I trust Hector, and if anyone can pull this off, he can. Right now that is the only hope I have, for I am leaving everything behind – my apartment, my job, my car and my family. Please don’t worry, I’ll survive. And know that I love you and I am proud of you. Mom, I also want to say I am sorry for having called you a nut. You were right all along! Please let us be reunited soon. Love, Lucy



Not Really The End

(Why was Sean Penn executed? What caused the chaos that enabled Carlos to escape? Is Lucy able to elude Homeland Alert and catch the boat to freedom? Do she and Hector reach Carlos before “they” find him? What happens to Sally, Lucy’s mother? Is she arrested as an accomplice? Does Phil ever get out of Iran? And Jen, does she risk her posh life-style to help her former best friend? Is Toni Blair really an Irani agent? Come back to Iwantchange.org if you want to find out.)

Afterward: Although most of the events described in this story are fictitious, many are true. For example, it has been estimated that security cameras film us on the average of 400 times a day. Selling naming rights to parks, stadiums, schools and freeways have become more and more common and many towns, cities and school districts are passing resolutions that would greatly increase the practice. As for Walton Charter Schools, John Walton (of Wal- Mart infamy) and his siblings are among the top ten richest people in the world. They have invested heavily in privatization of public education (see our story on Charter Schools) and in the promotion of legislation that undermines unions, workers rights and the rights of minorities. Walton sits on the board of the California Charter Schools Association, which is one of the sponsoring organizations of the school where I work. This same school now hires subs from subcontractors who get paid $30 an hour for their service, but pay only $11.00 an hour to credential teachers. Secretary of Education, Rod Paige, did call teacher’s unions “terrorists organizations.” Several bills are now before congress about reinstating the draft. And top banks are actually proposing that customers “get chipped.” Annie’s death at 36 is also becoming increasingly common as cancer rates soar – about 70% of which are caused by environmental factors. Finally, large prisons are being built for detaining “terrorists.” Recently The Department of Homeland Security completed a $115 million dollar facility in Tacoma, Washington. Of course, Bend Over and Kiss Your Ass Goodbye is pure fiction, but considering the utterly insane reality shows currently being broadcast on TV, it may not be fiction for long. Lolly

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